food love

Tonights dinner was made from the freshest ingredients

from the lovely wine, 

to the fresh basil and rosemary from the garden,

a lot of care went into this meal, 

the chopping, and slicing, dicing, and sautéing .... 

I started with steaming the kale, and the wild rice separately 

until the Kale was firm but tender, 

In a separate pan, I combined olive oil, garlic and fresh basil

cooking just look enough for the garlic to infuse the oil with its flavor and aroma

then I added the Kale and stirred until well mixed

For the Salmons sauce/gravy I started with onions and leeks on med/high

in some coconut oil, 

cooked until tender about 5 min. 

then added the mushrooms,

when they just started to brown

I used 2 tbls of wheat flour and stirred until it just started to brown

adding the wine now... so it is rich with flavor, 

and then of course 1/2 cup of coconut milk ( unsweetened)

turning the temp down to low, 

I added the green onions and tomatoes to the sauce stirring occasionally 

I broiled the salmon in the oven about 5 min on each side

with lemon, lemon oil, and lemon pepper

And... poof. 

I healthy well balanced meal, full of fresh vegetables,

nutritious and delicious,

you can tell a lot about how I'm feeling, according to how I cook...

Tonight I cooked with love. 

emotional "needs" ?

How do I purge myself of my selfish emotional needs?

Are they really needs because if they are not met will i DIE? 

No. I will not die.

But maybe my emotional "needs" can be met, WITHOUT

my emotional needs being in control of my life. 

I want to be so much STRONGER than my emotions.

Emotions are good,

they keep us in touch, empathetic, 

they keep us HUMAN.

However, those are unselfish examples.

At this time in my life, 

as a single mother, business woman, 

AS A STRONG WOMAN

who has overcome many struggles, head high, eyes open.

I find myself succumbing to selfish emotional needs. 

I have never felt the way that i do, 

though i must admit I have been guilty of 

letting my emotions make some of my choices instead of my logic,

now as a GROWN WOMAN I do realize the importance 

of consulting BOTH

Deep connection, strong emotion,.

Love, may make your knees weaken

and your senses heighten...

I would say my physical, emotional, spiritual, intellectual senses

are indeed at one of their highest points.

I've never "FELT" how i currently

feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel,

 quite honestly I'm trying to get my bearings 

and figure out where to plant my feet,

I KNOW they belong on the ground.

and I AM STRONGER than my emotions,

if ANYTHING.. my heart... should STRENGTHEN me

not weaken me.

 and It is just ONE MORE TOOL, in need of nurturing and growth

so that it may be used correctly 

and to its fullest potential

what are your thoughts... on overcoming your emotional needs

or making sure you keep them in check.

Does your heart run you?

or do you run your heart?

in the news today

Life is meant to bring pain,

out of tears grows new life and change, 

A deeper purpose is in all of us

individually, uniquely, creatively, UNCONDITIONALLY

Never knowing what tomorrow will bring

a chance for

Loyalty, Courage, Strength, Wisdom

In the news was devastation,

terror, sorrow and slain

Heavy heart full of questions

and feelin a bit

overwhelmed.

....

The heart breaks in so many ways ....

Dixon Fruit Market

I came across this beautiful Farm on the way out of Cali,

Organically grown, and local, 

CANT BEAT IT!!!

Don't these look delicious?!

THEY WERE

They also grew pistachios, 

and had ever flavor you could imagine, 

I planned on getting quite a few flavors, 

but I left with arms full of fruit instead

The man that runs the show, 

very kind, and informative

My last look at Cali, 

from the side of the freeway

This beautiful organic farm, 

really just made me want a garden more, 

with fresh everything, 

organic all the way...

nutritious and delicious...