Perception is eveything

Perception is everything.

Though you shouldn't judge a person by their appearances.

If you are consistently encountering the same kind of reaction from people

You can't help but ask yourself "what is it in my projection that is affecting your perception " 

If it is true, that what we put out, is what we get back

Then our lives are a reflection of who we truly are

Because the energy that we are receiving, is our OWN 

I want to try something different, I want to evolve my way of thinking, 

To put the right energy out into the world, to create a more aware life

Because everything we come in contact with, we impact in one way or another, 

The matter of how big or small that impact is, is insignificant. 

a natural

Some people are SO easy to work with

SO easy to photograph

and also fun... this young lady was unique in that way.

Please working with you Miss. A :)

Rain Drops...

Rain drops falling on my shoulder,
   Soaking, dripping off my nose,
tear stained cheeks, blend into the rain,
   laughter and reality, it all looks the same...
smile together, WE feel no pain
   sanity lost, can't remember your name.

Rain drops falling on my shoulder,
   Sun beating down on my face,
I can't dry fast enough, chilled to the bone,
  Don't remember when I might of known,
They way we are, the way we were...
    ideals shattered, they all seem the same

Rain drops falling on my shoulder,
   The warmth of you, so close,
Drowning like never before,
    but not gasping for air...
Are we all different
   you seem different in the rain...

Rain drops falling on my shoulder,
   The concrete seems to remember my face
insult to injury, i can still think
    eyes open wide, I can still see
hands pressed together, shouting for nothing
    Reality so clear, it comforts the pain

Rain drops falling on my shoulder,
    Heart racing so loud I can't hear,
The beat, drowning out my words,
    I could of sworn that beat, wasn't my own
I can't be sure, Its not quite clear
    But I still think, I'd do it again
 
Rain drops falling on my shoulders,
   I close my eyes, pretend I feel nothing,
The pain is deep, but so are we,
   Its doesn't end, either do we
Stripped of all my masks, standing alone in the rain,
   My dream world, quickly dissipates
Its like one by one, it all falls in a place
   I'll smile for you, and for you too
Sanity lost... can't remember my name

Do you know me? know my name?

Internal pain of the heart can seem like the worst kind of pain,

   More so than physical pain and mental pain

Dehabilitating ... bring the strongest person to their knees... 

   Why do we hurt those who love us most???

Maybe that which we need is what we truly fear and push away?

Maybe we are such selfish human creatures, we only think of ourselves?

Maybe we are blind, Maybe we are so detached from our own feelings, 

    we sure cant relate to other peoples feelings?? 

Maybe this... Maybe that... Maybe this....

 or maybe everything is just as it seems.

The human condition. suffering. 

   It seems like so many of us are suffering, what is the cause? 

   What is the solution... 

food love

Tonights dinner was made from the freshest ingredients

from the lovely wine, 

to the fresh basil and rosemary from the garden,

a lot of care went into this meal, 

the chopping, and slicing, dicing, and sautéing .... 

I started with steaming the kale, and the wild rice separately 

until the Kale was firm but tender, 

In a separate pan, I combined olive oil, garlic and fresh basil

cooking just look enough for the garlic to infuse the oil with its flavor and aroma

then I added the Kale and stirred until well mixed

For the Salmons sauce/gravy I started with onions and leeks on med/high

in some coconut oil, 

cooked until tender about 5 min. 

then added the mushrooms,

when they just started to brown

I used 2 tbls of wheat flour and stirred until it just started to brown

adding the wine now... so it is rich with flavor, 

and then of course 1/2 cup of coconut milk ( unsweetened)

turning the temp down to low, 

I added the green onions and tomatoes to the sauce stirring occasionally 

I broiled the salmon in the oven about 5 min on each side

with lemon, lemon oil, and lemon pepper

And... poof. 

I healthy well balanced meal, full of fresh vegetables,

nutritious and delicious,

you can tell a lot about how I'm feeling, according to how I cook...

Tonight I cooked with love. 

emotional "needs" ?

How do I purge myself of my selfish emotional needs?

Are they really needs because if they are not met will i DIE? 

No. I will not die.

But maybe my emotional "needs" can be met, WITHOUT

my emotional needs being in control of my life. 

I want to be so much STRONGER than my emotions.

Emotions are good,

they keep us in touch, empathetic, 

they keep us HUMAN.

However, those are unselfish examples.

At this time in my life, 

as a single mother, business woman, 

AS A STRONG WOMAN

who has overcome many struggles, head high, eyes open.

I find myself succumbing to selfish emotional needs. 

I have never felt the way that i do, 

though i must admit I have been guilty of 

letting my emotions make some of my choices instead of my logic,

now as a GROWN WOMAN I do realize the importance 

of consulting BOTH

Deep connection, strong emotion,.

Love, may make your knees weaken

and your senses heighten...

I would say my physical, emotional, spiritual, intellectual senses

are indeed at one of their highest points.

I've never "FELT" how i currently

feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel,

 quite honestly I'm trying to get my bearings 

and figure out where to plant my feet,

I KNOW they belong on the ground.

and I AM STRONGER than my emotions,

if ANYTHING.. my heart... should STRENGTHEN me

not weaken me.

 and It is just ONE MORE TOOL, in need of nurturing and growth

so that it may be used correctly 

and to its fullest potential

what are your thoughts... on overcoming your emotional needs

or making sure you keep them in check.

Does your heart run you?

or do you run your heart?

in the news today

Life is meant to bring pain,

out of tears grows new life and change, 

A deeper purpose is in all of us

individually, uniquely, creatively, UNCONDITIONALLY

Never knowing what tomorrow will bring

a chance for

Loyalty, Courage, Strength, Wisdom

In the news was devastation,

terror, sorrow and slain

Heavy heart full of questions

and feelin a bit

overwhelmed.